You know what I want?

To stop thinking about her. (No, not you. Her.)... And, it baffles me, you see. Intellectually I understand why she does what she does, but emotionally? I can't bring myself to let it go. I just want to make her see. Stop her from heading down this road, the road she is already so far down. I see so much of myself in her.

Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I am seeing things incorrectly. Projecting as I do, perhaps? I am, after all, just a crazy person living in her parents' basement.

Still though, I can't shake it and I am not a person who operates without the 'why'. Ever since she wandered back into my life before I left school, she got me invested in her situation again. In HER. She, of course, then walked away when she got what she needed or I needed something back. Empty words just as it always was.

I guess I just need time to forget it again. You'd figure two plus years would have been long enough.*shrugs* I'm sure that day will come.

After all...

I mean, really, who needs that disaster of a friendship anyway? Nothing but bad there, no sirree.