Today has been a ridiculous day of emotional ups and downs... Between the things I was ranting about in my earlier post to my family planning a vacation to visiting Elizabethtown. Today was insane.
I can't decide if I'm happy or deflated or just beyond tired. (Hell, maybe it is all three.)
Constantly thinking about people and how they work, why they do what they do, who they really are, the future, etc. etc. is exhausting. I need to escape. I think that is what the Etown trip was today. Yes, I needed things from my apartment, but also I just needed a change of scenery, a different set of humans.
It was so quiet at the apartment. Just me, doing whatever I wanted. By myself. Just feeling what 5 o'clock feels like without human baggage and non-communicative communication.
I didn't have to work to be understood. There were no misunderstandings or hidden meanings. Just me. Living. Dreaming. Existing peacefully without the constant fight that I seem to find everywhere.
I miss the quiet already.
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