"Too tired this time to deal with old suits you wear with your ties that won't bind."

Last week and this weekend were crappy, but I am attempting to turn the week around. I have been doing that a lot lately. Being positive. Remembering the good stuff.

Positive things to remember and repeat (apart from those two little girls up there ^):

* I don't have many, but the friends I have let in are proving to be good choices. Literally, there are like one or two, but I feel close to them. When we are together I don't feel wrong or strange. An improvement that helps me feel okay being me.

* I have not defaulted to a romantic relationship (or "relationship" as is more accurate). I am learning to be okay alone, to not crave the romantic attention I once did. I make a choice everyday not to cover up my bigger issues with illusions of crushes or with situations that aren't good for me. I have made a pact and will stick to. No settling for me.

* I AM ALMOST DONE. Elizabethtown has not been a place of positive experiences for me. However, after this semester I am pretty much done. I will be off-campus next semester and only here for one or two more classes, so that will help... I am determined now more than ever to get out of here and get my degree in the process.

* Lastly, it could be worse. I have better opportunities and circumstances than a lot of people in this world. Do I feel down sometimes? Sure. But, what I do with that is what matters...and what I will be doing one day not too far away will count. It will matter and I will make sure of that.

Even though I have felt not so great recently, I'm looking to turn that around.

Here's to hoping.