Today is not a good day.

Maybe it is my depression. Or my circumstances. I don't know and, really, I don't care.

The point is: I'm not happy. I'm alone and I feel trapped by the fact that I can't leave. No one texts, very few try. I just want to feel better and, being here, I'm starting to think that is not possible.

I'm doing my homework early for Christ's sake. I never did that... I'm sitting here, writing papers, doing what I'm supposed to. And, you know, it is a waste of time. All of it. NO ONE CARES. Like, I am not learning ANYTHING. I am simply going through the motions because that is what I'm told I HAVE to do.

Why do I have to do anything?

Whatever. We all know I'll stay. We all know things won't change. Who knows if that is me, them, or a combo.. But, whatever. They get to be happy. They get to be fine.

I get to go back to bed.